The Grand Weaver

I have begun to re-read the book The Grand Weaver by Ravi Zacharias. First of all if you haven't read this book I strongly encourage you to do so, I first read The Grand Weaver after Christmas last year. I had no idea what the book was about when I walked into the Christan book store and asked the sales associate for a recommendation. Without even thinking he told me I had to read this book because it has changed his view of God and life. Intrigued I obliged to get the book and try to complete it. I am not much of a reader but this book gripped my heart and spoke to me where I was at in that season of life. Fast forward, I decided that it was time to give this book another read through. I started reading the introduction and on page 11 Ravi says

"To allow God to be God we must follow him for who he is and what he intends, and not for what we want or what we prefer."

This hit me hard. I have been struggling with this lately. I know that God is sovereign and that he wants what is best for his children, but often I do not understand his plan. I have been struggling a lot lately with our in ability to have children. It is my hearts deepest desire and I know that the Lord knows that. But ultimately He is enough. It is in this season that he is allowing me to see the depths of who he is. To allow me to feel the depths of his love in a way that I would not otherwise have ever experienced. I know that he could in an instant allow us to have children... I have never ceased to believe that. However, it is in this season of waiting and longing that he allows me to see him as sovereign even when it means that I don't "get" what I want right now. It is in this valley the he is chipping away the things of me that are not of him... the things that when removed will make me a better wife, a better partner in ministry, a better friend, a better daughter and hopefully one day a better mother.

I am thankful for the wait. It is not everyday that I believe that but ultimately it is true.

So think about that quote and rest in the fact that to allow God to truly be God we must follow him for who HE is and what HE intends, and not what we want or would prefer.